Day 20 and 21

No approaches these 2 days ... home all day trying to make online poker to become normal again ... I finally had a normal sesion on day 21 .
Also on day 20 I got so pissed and stressed because absolutely nothing was working ... that I played some flash games online and wasted time a lot.
I also watched some porn and masturbated ... the major stress reliever for me.

Then I realized that I have to learn how to handle this negative emotions somehow in a different way because there will always be a very bad day.
When everything is neutral on the day or is running good ... I don't feel the need to play games or watch porn ... only when everything is very bad.


Tomorow I will approach in the morning ... I want to continue this program and finish it... I'm not quitting.